The Fiend

I was once "the fiend", the call till u answer & curse me out fiend, the why doesn't he wanna be with me fiend, the write u love letters fiend, the text u till u turned off ur phone fiend, the walk down ur block fiend, the give u my money fiend, the give u my sex fiend, the give u my breath fiend, the give u my life fiend, the give u all of me fiend....& when guys would fiend after me I would fiend after him & he would fiend after her...we were all foolish fiends. Fiending to be wanted, to be loved by someone by that one...by her, by him, by he, by she...with me fiending to be wanted by HE. I gotta admit I definitely overdosed fell flat on my face embarrassed ashamed fiending for a "HE" that didn't value me...(unbeknownst to me) wanting to be with a deadbeat, a sex fiend, an alcoholic, a cheater, a liar, a fool, a theif, a cheat, "a wolf in sheeps clothing" & every time the wolf revealed itself the fiend in me died...little by little she died...thinking to myself y am I fiending degrading myself to please a man that if I one day ever bared his last name his own legacy would be "male whore" therefore making me "the fiend that finally got the male whore"...Y would I want to be known as that "fiend"??? The foolish sheep that let the wolf devour her. We can only claim to be naive but for so long. I would allow u to keep playing me for a fool, to keep thinking I'm that same fiend, BUT since I'm too old to continue to play victim watch ur steps around this fiend bc SHE SHALL FIEND NO MORE!!!!!

I'm Backkk =-)

Hey Guys & Dolls...been a while since I've blogged ((the whole moving from NYC to LA thing had my mind focused on other issues))...I haven't really been in a writing mood but an "I Love You" text recently annoyed the heck outta me, so I figure NOW it's time to vent...I introduce to u "The Fiend"