Laying here thinking ab the days when u were once mine...when u first walked up to me & said "OMG UR BEAUTIFUL"...fun times..we grew together, laffed all day made love all nite..ate, slept, woke up, ate, slept, woke up; together we were one, u finished my sentences I finished urs, my breath was ur breath...I coulda swore I saw u in all of my dreams every nite as I lay next to u silently, asleep, praying that u'd never leave me...hoping that u'd stay 4ever..that we'd be together for more than a second, minute, hr, day; that u would decide I was the one b4 I walked out the door just to return again & ur vision still blurred bc u couldn't see....Couldn't see what everyone else saw in u & me...ur vision was distorted & I stayed tryna show u...screaming with no voice, silently waiting with little patience, begging without uttering a word...Started off so beautiful ended so ugly...I didn't give u all of me bc I'm a "girl" I gave u all of me by accident I didn't even mean to fall...fall so hard bc "crazy girls" fall hard. & I'm not crazy just woulda did everything for u... Gave u my last when I didn't even have it gave u my first as soon as I got it all bc u wanted it. I swear some day my loyalty will be the death of me & as I lay here tears falling I still miss that "us" we once were b4 I finally gave up on repairing ur vision. I wanted u to LOVE ME but u decided, then, to LOVE ME NOT...
Thinking I'm never gonna find what we had again bc I've never experienced a love so deep for another being. Everything new is forced & faked, but when they tell me u LOVE ME & ask me if I LOVE u now....I guess...I guess...I LOVE u NOT...
-XoXo
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